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Today is Thursday, January 18, 2007 |
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| i hate my work NOW |
date : 18 JAN 2007
time : 1331
venue: Citibank testroom
haha, long time din blog offline. as usual, i have a lot of things to tell, but duno where to start...
work pressure is increasingly hard to handle... the level of tolerance regarding the messy time schedule and lack of technical knowledge is getting lower and lower. i cant breathe, (choke and die~)
i no longer enjoy what i am doing. and coming to work has really became a drag. for the first time im seriously thinking about leaving NCR. yeap, BOSS if u r reading THIS, i m starting step by step to prepare my resume, sending it out and going for interviews (as if gt people wanna interview me.) anyway, i no longer seek satisfaction from my work.
i met up with wee loon last nite (yeap, those from SSP should know... wee loon is my first bf). After 5.5yrs din meet up, i've grown taller :D hahaha, really felt good seeing him again for he has affected me a lot in term of love, attitude and habit.
he jz got back from vietnam. we had a long chat last nite, which felt great coz i cant remember when was the last time i had a heart to heart chat with a man. he is successful now, has a good career and a loving wife. happy for him.
but as we reminisce old memories, a strong feeling of sadness came upon me. looking down KL city from his hotel room (yeap, fyi, i was at his hotel room, chat and drank plain water... DUN THINK FUCKING TOO MUCH~ hahaha!)... anyway, looking down KL city from his hotel room, i have a sudden surge of loneliness that creeps into my body. i feel, sad... FOR A WHILE...
he is leading his own life and i am living my own. talking to him reminds me of Eugene and what happened on my birthday last year. which feels... again... sad...
2 men, whom i loved and left and left behind... come back 5.5 and 5 yrs later...
God is playing some game i guess...
wee loon ask me... if we could turn back the time, would i still wanna be with him?
erm............................ no comments.
i guess i am really tired of working so hard. i need a break already. i am not the kind of person who can take a lot of pressure, and i need much more guidance than "june, pls prepare the PO" and "june, u can handle this ar" and "june, i leave it to u to plan" and "june, how ar xxx Bank??" and "june, im in terrible trouble" and "june, im under tremendous pressure, help me out please"... u know what i am talking about.
you see, i really cant plan what i wanna write properly... coz now i wanna talk about Stephen. Yay, going for his class tonite... after not exercising for 3 days. sucks. YOUkh din teach on tuesday and the pressure i had on my shoulder is upsetting my tummy. Stephen added me in friendster... ya please go and view him :-D
how are you guys recently? i seem to be asking this question a lot but no one seemed to answer~ hahaha... drop a message at the Cbox beside la... coz guys, i went to ur blogs and no updates going on.
looking down from menara citibank.... i wanna go and change my phone again... my motorazr v3i screen is flickering... still within warranty....
so see u guys and have a nice day...
love you all and God bless... |
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hey, this is a good post i should say. i have been slacking off. i have no idea what to write nowadays. i need suggestions!! oh wait, i am going to view your STEPHAN now! hehehe
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hey, this is a good post i should say. i have been slacking off. i have no idea what to write nowadays. i need suggestions!! oh wait, i am going to view your STEPHAN now! hehehe